i opened the car door, getting ready to set off for gathering.i sat with jay in the back seat.there was a cane at the backseat so i asked daddy what was it for and why was it there but he didnt answer me and pretend not to hear. after repeated attempts, he said no lah nothing much. one and a half min into setting off, i felt smth crawl over my leg so i tried to take a look from where i was sitting. i saw smth black sweep across my left foot. then i shrieked and wriggled my foot furiously to shake that damn thing off. i thought it was a cockroach. i was thinking if it was a cockroach, nvm. but u know what daddy said? he said, aiyah nothing la. just a lizard. upon learning it's a lizard, i was fuming mad inside. lizards? my goodness i hate lizards. my father jolly well knows that im afraid of them and he didnt warn me abt it! and when i tried to reason with him, he said if he told me, i wldnt have sat the car there. but who cares?! i can always walk there since its so near. and he said he didnt think the lizard wld ran across my leg, like it wont be so suay. i was really mad at him. i wanted to scream at him. i wanted to cry out loud. i can still picture that scene of the black lizard running across my foot not once but twice!now i have a phobia of sitting in the back seat of the car. i will not put my feet down. i just dont understand. why is my life marred by stupid lizards? why in the world will they follow me all the way into the car? other pple cars do not have, why do my father's car have one? and its not the first time. and it doesnt help when jay was holding on to the cane and occasionally accidentally sweeping the end of the cane on my hand or my body, and it feels exactly like how the lizard ran across my feet. i screamed and scolded him. when going home, i put my leg up the car seat, and daddy scolded me for not sitting properly. and i rebutted back, why didnt u tell me there was a lizard in the car in the first place? and he kept quiet. i felt like i had been molested by a rapist. and that i cld coop myself in my room and cry for one day. i really hate lizards. do u know how much i detest them? why do lizards live on earth? why cant they just live on mars or smth? if i were the ruler of all animals and insects, i will pass a rule to wipe them all out with shieldtox and bygone at mighty levels. ARGH. i aim to build a device to protect me from lizards in future. i ever bathed with a black lizard between my feet before. they really shld just be electric shocked and get extinct. i do not want to see them in my sight at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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today i had planned to go support carrie in heeren for the mission 4. mummy told me to go temple cos my zodiac animal has some tai sui thing. initially i wanted to forgo temple. but somehow i went.and only reached temple at 1pm. and found out my zodiac animal was not involved in the tai sui thing. i felt so cheated. i am always cheated by my parents. parents do not speak the truth. why? i really dont like it. and then, when we left, i left with one of my uncle and he took a long way and didnt send me to the correct mrt. he dropped me off at bishan when we were in toa payoH! by the time i got to heeren it was 205pm. not a single sign that some filming had been going on at all. but i dont blame him of course. if i was smart enough not to listen to mummy, i wld have seen carrie. wad the. stupid parents.
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shopping in town was madness. squeezy and bustling like a market. it seriously didnt feel like i was buying smth expensive even though it costs a bomb cos everyone just grab and buy like they had alot of money. but i managed to get all my xmas presents. just some final minor touch-ups will do. i want to go star awards post party! sighs.
its quite amazing and hilarious actually at how jay and sarah actually believes in the existence of santa claus. i mean its li suo dang ran cos they are still kids. but i can just see how foolish and innocent i was when i was young and my parents wld paint this imaginary pic of santa giving us presents if we re good that year. and anything they defy, just threaten them with the idea of santa claus not giving them presents and they instantly turn good.

cant wait for zouk soon soon soon!! and xmas party!! imagine 20+ to 30 pple eating buffet tog at a table! and its MY FAMILY! its gona be total chaos and we're so gona freak out all the pple who will be going there. my family will eat like as if they hadnt eaten for 10 years!