actually come to think of it, this whole entire thing is such a waste of time and money. i was so keen on it at first but now i think i just wasted my time there. we got cheated on our drinks.

and worst of all, i created a "bad reputation" for myself and my strict-mum. and i think one of them is angry with me. im feeling really bad for being a wet blanket.

and then when im hm, i have to put on another facade. weaving another story to my mum and im feeling guilty for lying to her. i hate to lie. one lie leads to another and then i feel i have a heavier burden. and also in a way i have tarnished her image.

i shld not have gone. or... NONO i shld have just told the truth then everyone can stay on.
argh! i dont know how im feeling now. i dont know what im talking abt either. i just hope everyone is fine with me now. and that person is not angry with me anymore because my msg is not replied!