the world is such a political place.

i feel so redundant and dumb working now.
i feel the same way in cca.
i feel like i didnt have a mouth. i just cant talk! or i dont say the right things at the right time.

maybe if i hadnt pursued to achieve all these, it would be better.
i actually felt that studying is better than working for the first time.

urrgh. sighs. im confused. so political.