theres so many things pending that i have yet to do, and the feeling of knowing that there's so many things waiting for you to do and you will never gona finish your work at the end of the day, totally sucks. i need to pack the table, clear the rubbish on the bed, pack my bedroom, pack my cupboard, sell of my unwanted clothes, wash the clothes, call up sponsors, omg. its holiday now!! and its still so busy?!

holiday time is the period of high inertia. i haven started reading my books yet, revise my german.

my life is so unhappening. its so full of regrets. life is a failure when its so full of regret. sigh. so many things which i regretted not signing up for. and missed once in a lifetime opportunity.
first is the work and travel usa thing. my friends ask me why i didnt ask them if not we cld have gone tog. no one said anything so no one made any move!!
second is LPP program to germany. but this one not so dui.
third is summer internship in korea! omg i can smack myself. i actually saw the applic and didnt apply. i shld have went ahead to apply. gosh. if not i will be in korea now! see so many opportunities knocking on my door and i just let them go like dat. i only have 3 yrs to study and explore and after that its out to the working world.

daddy says these kinda opportunities are hard to come by so just grab it. but im worried about the financial costs he has to support me. he says next yr if you catch the opportunities again, dont think so much and just grab them. mummy only sees the cost that i will incur.

see parents are conflicting each other they are making their kids confused. argh..

in life, you just cant think so much and care too much abt certain things. if not your life will be much more complicated!