im currently coping well with my schedule. actually it isnt as bad as it seems.
these few days i cant seem to focus on studying for midterms. i took the whole day ytd to read fna 2 chaps only! and today only read om 2 chaps of notes. haven touched the textb yet!
guess it's another night of burning midnight oil. have been staying up late the past few nights to complete my readings for the day because i had been slack in the morning/noon.

seriously when i think abt this thur's video, im kinda excited. much as im nervous for it, forgeting my lines and content, and my positioning stmt cant hit 10 mins! its only 5 min for goodness sake but i thought it was an accomplishment alr... anw back to the topic, i cant wait for thur 1230 to come because by then i would have completed finishing sch!!! ahhh! yes! its a great liabilty off my shoulder. i cant wait for sch to reopen next week and thur i wld not have to dress formal and stay til 6pm and end up getting caught in the jam home! Yes! cant wait for it! so i dont really care how it will turn out to be, as long as i get it over and done with!

and i realised that my attitudes and perceptions are changing as i grow up. i used to be a perfectionist when i was young. okay im serious. i will erase and liquid every mistake, making sure no cancellation, hand in neat and all correct ans etc. but that was pri sch. sec sch i began to be more slack. and now uni, i just have this get-it-over-and-done-with attitude. i dont know if it's good or bad. because as u grow up, u just know that everything just cannot be perfect? and some things are just obstacles that u have to surpass...

i dont know how to say it. recently i met a german friend. we were talking abt our upcoming german test, like hows the preparation. and mine was the first class to be tested on wed while hers was on fri. pple wld complain how little time they have to prepare for the test, but somehow i seem to be so optimistic abt it and exclaim oh how much i cant wait to get it over and done with.

and i find that im giving myself this ans everytime i face a prob. like at the end of an exam, even though i know that i had screwed it up badly but i also know that at least i got it done and that's it. im happy already. dont really go and think too much into it.

am i being normal? or is my attitude degrading?