after attending finishing school, im left wondering if the seniors assigned to us to share their experiences with us, are actually those top notch ones or are they the average standard in biz? they seem to be super smart, had gone through alot, gained alot of experience through the many interviews, did interns in big names, have three-fold times more knowledge than me, etc... but they are only 3 years older than me?! or is this suppose to be the life of a going-to-graduate undergrad?like being so pro and everything. somehow i sense i will be a totally changed person if i were to follow their foot-steps, i dont know.......like i will be very professional about giving speeches, getting job offers by banks and all that, having that substance in you, knowing your stuff well, be a total workaholic. and it's only 3 years from now. i dont think i did alot to my life in 3 years say for eg from j1-after alevels. and i seriously cant picture myself working in real-world, meeting those deadlines, having meetings, writing reports everyday, eerrr it sounds scary and no-life. i still find myself childish sometimes, in terms of thinking and speech. i really cant imagine what i will end up to be after i graduate. will i even have job offer? okay it sounds quite pathetic.

shoots haven done legal tut but i dont know how to do. i seriously dont know how am i to survive legal this sem. no idea what the lect is trying to get across. i wish i dont have hw to do.
and german2 is killing me. its so damn tough! i dont rmb eng is so hard to learn when i was in pri sch. :\