rag wasnt as fun as i thought. i watched every single hall and faculty performance except the biz one. cos they made us go down to the field to cheer and its level ground so we cldnt see. isnt it ironic? but we won the chancellor shield in the end. anw it was just an experience.

im so touched by daddy. i've seen him waking up at 5plus early morning to marinate the meat for dinner for us. and ytd before he left for thai early morning, he woke up early to prepare spaghetti for us for our dinner ytd. we just had to heat it up. whoa im seriously touched and i kinda feel guilty for spending his money on unnecessary stuff when he is trying hard to save and scrimp for sis's overseas education and my tertiary education during this period.

tertiary education is really tough. financially, we require laptop. its really hard to survive without one cos we're flooded with emails everyday. and i already have 3 personal accts, add on to one more NUS one. and the sch floods my personal mail too. so i have to constantly check mail like 3 times a day.
also monthly allowance has increased sharply compared to jc. everyone is like getting 100 or 200 per week.one mth it totals to approx 500? and imagine if i stayed hostel. it will be 1000+ more to add on to my parents' expenses. i think i shall not reapply hostel.

also i dont like the idea of their cca system. if we do not sign up at the matric fair, we have no idea when their cca starts, the management com is so in a hurry to elect the next com to replace them, when i haven settle down in sch, rmbing so many stuff, dates dates and dates to meet.
all so individualistic and not as a school, too much freedom. i prefer to be spoon-fed. i know it shld not be like this, but the edu syst has been spoon-feeding us for the past 12 yrs, and they suddenly let go.

i dont feel like i belong to the sch, or the faculty despite gg for orientation. i dont feel like im actually studying in the school. and biz is not as relax as what others had told me. more lessons adding on apart from tutorial and lect, and its gona be a packed 5 day wk. i dont understand how some pple can pick up a part time job while working. where do they have the time?

i wana take a minor or a double major but dont know how the syst works. no one tell us anything, its really independent. is smu even more individualistic and independent?

i want to join cca, but i dont even know when it starts, no news except for welcome teas and more welcome teas which always falls on a day when there's another sch event that im attending. all so in a hurry, datelines are over before i know it.

life is too fast paced, too many things happening ard the sch, i dont know what i missed out. maybe i have slacked too long already, my brain isnt as flexible. im afraid i cant catch up in lect.

and i got managerial econs! its rumoured to be damn hard, a level harder than jc micro econs. so how? i dont even understand ltj's econs lecture in 1st 3 mths. im fated for doom.

my only consolation: no sch for this wed and fri and im gg LIVE THE DREAM and jam and hop! may go bugis again for more shopping! i only managed to cover half of the first floor shops ytd.

ps/ i had to fix my printer up cos i didnt use it for a looong time. now its active again.