i was thinking what if i accepted the offer 2 yrs ago? will my life change? i think i definitely wont be ending up here in where i dreamed to be. so maybe its a blessing in disguise i rejected the offer without knowing why? some psychology of my brain is hard to figure out at that time i guess.

and i know i got to set my attitude and mindset right, right from the start. i dont want to go wrong now.

shit i feel fat now. not exercising for a week and i just sit on the sofa whole day, eating. i feel like i cant breathe properly. i think the fats have clogged my heart.

i didnt listen to the sinseh. she said i shld not move ard too much. but ytd i really cldnt take it. my parents brought me out to watch fireworks and managed to shop a little before that. i feel so not shiok cos we had to rush off to get a good spot alr. ate supper after that. wa lao... im always eating just before i sleep.

okay gg back to sinseh ltr. if she says im recovering well, i shall go shopping after that! haha.