school's gona start in like 1 mth?! im looking forward and not looking forward. get it?

so many things im supposed to do before school starts.
but as long as i keep thinking there's still one month more, i will never get it done.

this wk is another crazy wk.

wed: brought jay to watch transformers. halfway thru, he said he didnt want to watch. wa lao! luckily it was ending soon. u know why? cos he's thinking about his friend mitchell waiting for him at the playground.
night was madness. ended in a not-so-healthy tone. and it was the first time i enjoyed mambo actually. we had a little too much. because i actually got high. haha.

thur: i slept for barely 3 hrs and was awoken up, chased out of the house to attend my sister's graduation ceremony.
my face was black i think. according to my sis's friends. this is how i look when i have not enough sleep.
sat through the entire ceremony, 2 long speeches, witness 1654 grads collect their certs! gosh! bless me!
ended at 11am. ate at their reception as lunch, and chiong home to sleep again.

fri: yay! finally our sleepover plan is taking into action! going to de's hse with yl.
and we are gona watch movie for the first time tog! ahha! after being friends tog for 3 yrs! cos they just want to eat popcorn.


LPP is stressing me. i want to go, but as mum and sis keep saying its not as easy as u think it is, learning your course in another foreign language, im deterred again. elaine jie-jie asks me to go for it. im set to go for it, anw its not cnfm i can get it if i dont pass my language course.

but im beginning to suspect smth. usually i dont get selected for this kinda things or even qualify and somemore they say its an overwhelming response. and now they tell me i get selected when the essay i submitted was a think-on-the -spot, no planning like intro body and concl kinda work, and i actually got selected. so is it few pple actually applied for it this yr? maybe there are disadvantages? i actually took out all my certs to write the appl for hostel, putting in alot of hard work and i didnt get it.

one moment im excited about LPP. the next moment, i have doubts about it. why is it i have such extreme feelings? i need some assurance about it .

my mum instead talks to me in a negative tone. she doubts i can cope. she is afraid i cannot survive in another country myself. she thinks that i doesnt like econs and thus i will not like to study for econs.
ironically, she always comments how her friend's daughter goes overseas to study, how good the exposure is, how she will be a hotcake to many MNCs, and now when i have a chance, she didnt directly support me.

if i dont try, i will never know if i can do it rite? guess im set for it. at least daddy's given the green light financially, and i know he's more open minded.