ARGH. my life is really full of regrets. i was so foolish back then. trying to save money and not apply smu. why didnt i? i seriously dont understand myself. what i was thinking then. my life is so screwed now. my future is uncertain. im afraid i threw away a chance to pursue what im actually capable of. shiiit. i hate this. why are there so many choices?
the letter is arriving soon. im anxious yet skeptical abt its arrival. cos i know its a 90% chance of disappointment. why is it only dragon babies suffer? i dont want to be a dragon baby! now with unsw, we have even fewer places. wth. everything just have to happen in our year. resigned to fate... i will never work/vote for the g***!

pray hard its biz sch.